Giving Up - Have You Given Up on Yourself?

"I feel like giving up," Emma told me in our first phonedoing that is causing you to be so unhappy?'"
session. "I've worked and worked on myself and I'm stillEmma did this.
miserable. I've had years of therapy and I still feel"Now allow your feeling self, which is your inner child, to
unbearably depressed. Nothing is working."answer you. Move into your unhappiness and allow
It sounds to me like you are abandoning yourself."that part of you to speak."
"What do you mean? I take good care of myself. I eatEmma's child: "You don't even know I exist. You never
well, exercise daily, work hard and take care ofpay any attention to me. You never listen to me. You
finances - in fact I'm doing really well financially - and Ijudge me all the time. You are constantly telling me I'm
pamper myself. I get massages, get my nails done, andnot doing things right and that I'm not good enough."
buy beautiful clothes. I have a nice house, a caringEmma was stunned. "Wow! That's right! I am always
husband, and two wonderful children. I DO take carejudging myself. Is this what is causing my misery?"
of myself, which is why I feel like giving up. I don't get"Yes, it's part of it. Not only are you judging yourself,
why you are telling me that I'm abandoning myself."but then you ignore how you feel when you judge
"What are you feeling right now?"yourself. Then you project out on to others the fact
"Miserable and angry at you for not understanding."that you are judging yourself and not listening to or
"Are you willing to take responsibility for being theunderstanding yourself. You got angry at me for not
cause of your anger and misery?"understanding you, which is a projection of you not
"What do you mean?"understanding you. These are all ways you are
"Are you willing to know that you are the cause ofabandoning yourself, which is what is causing your
your misery and anger and to learn what you areunhappiness. Now, ask your Guidance - your older
doing to cause it?"wiser self - what you need to do so that your inner
"Okay, but I don't know what to do."child starts to feel loved by you."
"Emma, do you have any kind of spiritual connection?"Emma asks. "She says that I need to stop judging
"No, I don't believe in God."myself."
"I'd like you to imagine your own higher self - an older,"Emma, I suggest that you start to notice your
wiser version of you. Are you willing to do that?"judgments without judging yourself for judging yourself.
"Okay."You cannot stop something that you are not aware of
"Right now, just take a deep breath and imagine thatdoing. So just start to notice."
you are sitting with a very unhappy child. Focus in yourEmma did start to notice, which enabled her to
heart and imagine that your older, wiser self is withgradually become less judgmental of herself.
you. Ask her to bring compassion into your heart forEventually, she stopped abandoning herself and
your unhappy inner child. Find a place in you that reallylearned to treat herself with love.
wants to learn about what you are thinking and doing"You know what?" she said to me in a phone session.
that is causing your inner child to be so unhappy. Now"I feel joy for the first time in my life!
ask your inner child out loud, 'What am I thinking or